It’s been a year.. or almost a year!
Wow!!
Happy anniversary to me! Well, I think I’m the only one who knows what I’m talking about.
Wow!! Amazing!! Didn’t realise it’s been a year.
Looking back, I shouldn’t be mad at everything, instead, I should be grateful for my past. Allah wants to open my eyes, open my heart and I am blessed that everything happened at this time of my life than later in the future. If thinking it this way, I am really grateful that He has shown me and guided me to the right path. Alhamdulilah.
I am proud to say that I am not someone who I used to be. I hope I’ll stay this way till the day I die. 
If I met the Chinese doctor, I wonder what she would say… hmm it makes me wanna meet her now… so bad… ’cause I just wanna know what she will tell me this time…
Like maybe I am getting better, or she can sense something different in me perhaps… more positiveness *laugh* Oh no, don’t get me wrong. She’s not a witch doctor. She is a traditional Chinese medical practitioner. And… she has a degree in psychology (if I’m not mistaken) and she is a validated therapist. I remember before I left her house last year, she gave me a warm hug, and told me ‘You need to let go, forgive and move on and then you’ll be happy. Otherwise you will see darkness around you when there are actually full of colours.’ Yup… deep metaphor, but I got everything just fine.
So, it’s been a year… well more than a year actually because last year at this time round, I was in Bangkok *grin* Yeah.. Bangkok… Oooo I miss having a foot massage there *giggle* Okay that’s totally off the topic!
Anyway, I had a great talk with AG and Wardah this morning. And I spilled out some really personal stuff to them and I was glad that they didn’t judge me and they were actually glad for everything. Everything!
Alhamdulilah and I should also be grateful that I have friends like them… well, them as friends, it’s an understatement really. I feel like they are more like sisters to me. Alhamdulilah. I was really touched by what they have done and are doing at the moment for me, especially Wardah. I am really indebted with her. I was almost in tears just now. May Allah bless them always ameen ameen ameen. So now all we have to do is we need to put our thinking hats together.
And… okay… this is it… I wanna let it off my chest…
I am actually proud of my accomplishment. I feel at ease with everything and yeah… I think I have let go… well, no more thinking of the past. My main concern is the things that are coming ahead and yeah… looking forward to the new year. New year means new chapter in my life and I think it’s time to close the old one for good in a good way with fond memories…. I mean just remember of the fond memories and forget about the bad ones… you know bury the hatchet and leave everything behind. Besides what’s done has been done and whatever it is, let it remain in the past, it should be that way isn’t it? Things happen for a reason and Allah knows more than I do. I believe there are blessings deep within 
Is this my new resolution? *laugh* I’m not really sure if this can be called as a new resolution but if it is, it’s still good isn’t it?
HBP, lets have a nice closure to 2010 and welcome the new year with a smile. Life is full of miseries, yes, but of course they always come with hidden beauty, and we can taste the sweetness of life if only we choose to see it that way
half blood princess
