Alhamdulillah

I am grateful that everything went smoothly. There were funny moments as today is the day I finally uttered the three words to a man who really deserves to hear it. I know he’d been waiting for me to say it for almost six months and alhamdulilah finally the moment came and he heard me whisper every word in his ears yesterday on the wedding dais.

I am grateful to my family, especially Mum and Dad, my brothers, especially Erul, and my sisters for helping me out. They are my precious. :’) I love you all and I do hope beautiful events like today’s will bring us all stick together and closer. Amin. Thank you for all your support and help. ❤

I am thankful and grateful to all my close friends who witnessed the big day of my life. Thank you my hang-out buddies – Geck, Zatul, Rose, Noi, Izan and Sens, I thank my Regis Family – AG, Nash, Zety, Hjh Marinah and Cg Yahsyimmah, and some of my colleagues for coming. Your presence meant a lot to me and deep in my heart I am truly grateful to have wonderful friends like you. You all are like a family to me and I love you. *hugs* :')

Thank you Geck and Sens for the wedding gifts. I will open them with Mr Azman after our wedding reception 🙂 but I bet they are lovely *giggle*

I thank Izan for helping me prepare all my wedding events. Izan also was so creative and lending her time and energy and ideas to help me to decorate the hantaran gifts. Thank you Izan. *hugs*

Wardah, you are one special and superb human being. My parents and I are truly indebted to you and I think even the word 'thank you' is not suffice to express everything that I feel inside. You've been helping me and my parents since the beginning and I am grateful to Allah that He has sent me a great helper like you. I do hope Allah will grant all your wishes, Hjh Siti Wardah Shukriati binti Hj Md Tahir, and I do pray that you'll be successful in all the things you do and I pray that you will find your own happiness soon. Amin Amin Amin… you are not just a friend, but a sister to me. Thank you for being my wedding planner 😀 and I love you sis :') *hugs*

O Allah… I am grateful for everything. I know they all are from You and I am grateful. I can never count the blessings. Alhamdulillah. :')

I remember what AG and Izan said to me once: You lost a friend but in return you get more better and great friends.

That indeed is true. I have all my close friends around me and I have my family and they have been helpful with all the preparations.

Allah has shown me the blessings in disguise. And for this I am truly grateful. Alhamdulillah.

11.03.2011 is a day to remember.
It is a new chapter in my life. I am now a wife to Mr Azman and a mother to his two kids. Alhamdulillah.

I hope and will always pray that I can be a great, loyal, superb wife and mother to them with the guidance of Allah. Amin.

To my beloved husband, I thank Allah for sending me you, for this chance in life to be a wife to you and I'll always pray that we will always paint our new life as a family with beautiful colours. May Allah grant us happiness and may our love for each other grow strong each day. And most importantly may Allah bless us and our new life. Amin.

Sick!!

Well, I meant ‘Sick’ here in two different ways. It depends on how I say it, right?

Definition 1:

I am literally sick… well to be exact, I’ve been sick after I got engaged. What?? Engaged? Yeah *smile* I am now engaged to a lovely sweet guy *wink* Alhamdulillah…

Okay, I am not here to talk about my engagement day. It was over and yeah I don’t want to talk about it because that will be off the topic. Where was I again? Oh yeah. Sick! Yes, I have been sick (again I repeat) and it’s getting worse I guess. At first I was feverish and got the flu and then now I am suffering from dry cough.. (noticed there I’m using the word ‘suffer’?) and Allah knows I have tried various remedies to cure the cough. I hate getting the flu and I hate cough.. (I know I shouldn’t say ‘hate’ here, I mean this is nothing compared to terminal diseases, am I right?)

Astagfirullah… I am complaining I know… Count your blessings HBP… Being sick is kaffarah.. kaffarah HBP. Do remember that… so be patient and be thankful for Allah loves you dear…

Yes I am comforting myself…

Yesterday I was so sick that when I got home, I went to bed before 7 and only woke up before 5 in the morning. I didn’t even have dinner, though I asked my sister to buy some satay. So that shows how sick I was yesterday.

Definition 2:

This kind of  ‘sick’ is different. I am totally sick of individuals who have ill thoughts on me when I do not have such thing on them. Why make something that’s happening in my life a big issue when I don’t even give a damn about a thing in their lives? I do not criticise them nor judge them but noooooo… they don’t just leave me alone.

O Allah… give me abundance of patience and make me strong to ignore all these hypocrites, backstabbers and gossipers.

Okay, I think I’m gonna sleep on it tonight… again!

Happy Anniversary!

It’s been a year.. or almost a year!

Wow!!

Happy anniversary to me! Well, I think I’m the only one who knows what I’m talking about.

Wow!! Amazing!! Didn’t realise it’s been a year.

Looking back, I shouldn’t be mad at everything, instead, I should be grateful for my past. Allah wants to open my eyes, open my heart and I am blessed that everything happened at this time of my life than later in the future. If thinking it this way, I am really grateful that He has shown me and guided me to the right path. Alhamdulilah.

I am proud to say that I am not someone who I used to be. I hope I’ll stay this way till the day I die. 🙂

If I met the Chinese doctor, I wonder what she would say… hmm it makes me wanna meet her now… so bad… ’cause I just wanna know what she will tell me this time…

Like maybe I am getting better, or she can sense something different in me perhaps… more positiveness *laugh* Oh no, don’t get me wrong. She’s not a witch doctor. She is a traditional Chinese medical practitioner. And… she has a degree in psychology (if I’m not mistaken) and she is a validated therapist. 🙂 I remember before I left her house last year, she gave me a warm hug, and told me ‘You need to let go, forgive and move on and then you’ll be happy. Otherwise you will see darkness around you when there are actually full of colours.’ Yup… deep metaphor, but I got everything just fine.

So, it’s been a year… well more than a year actually because last year at this time round, I was in Bangkok *grin* Yeah.. Bangkok… Oooo I miss having a foot massage there *giggle* Okay that’s totally off the topic!

Anyway, I had a great talk with AG and Wardah this morning. And I spilled out some really personal stuff to them and I was glad that they didn’t judge me and they were actually glad for everything. Everything!

Alhamdulilah and I should also be grateful that I have friends like them… well, them as friends, it’s an understatement really. I feel like they are more like sisters to me. Alhamdulilah. I was really touched by what they have done and are doing at the moment for me, especially Wardah. I am really indebted with her.  I was almost in tears just now. May Allah bless them always ameen ameen ameen. So now all we have to do is we need to put our thinking hats together.

And… okay… this is it… I wanna let it off my chest…

I am actually proud of my accomplishment. I feel at ease with everything and yeah… I think I have let go… well, no more thinking of the  past. My main concern is the things that are coming ahead and yeah… looking forward to the new year. New year means new chapter in my life and I think it’s time to close the old one for good in a good way with fond memories…. I mean just remember of the fond memories and forget about the bad ones… you know bury the hatchet and leave everything behind. Besides what’s done has been done and whatever it is, let it remain in the past, it should be that way isn’t it? Things happen for a reason and Allah knows more than I do. I believe there are blessings deep within 😀

Is this my new resolution? *laugh* I’m not really sure if this can be called as a new resolution but if it is, it’s still good isn’t it?

HBP, lets have a nice closure to 2010 and welcome the new year with a smile. Life is full of miseries, yes, but of course they always come with hidden beauty, and we can taste the sweetness of life if only we choose to see it that way 😀

Luncheon

Today I had lunch with two of my old good mates, Renee and Dolly.

We talked about a lot of things and we had a great time though Renee’s food had a small bug in it. Ewww but then she was served a nice chocolate cake or brownie or whatever the name is to compensate the food that she didn’t get to indulge and finish.

Anyway then after having a quick lunch with them, I met up with Wardah and AG and then Wardah had to go… then I went home…

And now here I am in front of my laptop listening to my favourite songs – and read other’s blogs, tweets and play my games in my itouch.

I need to scrap actually but Dad’s in the office. I don’t think I can be in the same room with him now… awkward ’cause I don’t think I can just have a conversation with him out of the blue. Yup, in case you’re wondering, I am not close with him 😉 as simple as that…

So what should I do to kill time then? If I wanna scrap, I need him to leave the room first, and I just have to wait then…

I believe

I believe that everything happens for a reason. I have no regrets no matter what others are going to say about it.

I believe everything has already been written in the Book of Decree. I won’t budge even an inch for the choice I have made is guided by My Lord above 😀 Alhamdulillah.

I believe all will end well no matter what. Come what may, inshaAllah my God will aid in many ways in any way.

I believe in His judgment for He the only One who knows things seen or unseen. For He knows what’s best for me, thus I put my trust in Him.

If I am to face another hurdle,  I am ready to face the world. So just bring it! For I am not alone, He is always there for me.